2023

12/24/23

2023 was beautiful and a hard pill to swallow. 

Like most years, I learned and with learning comes growing.

Like most years, I cried and laughed. 

2023 fueled me. 

If I came this far, why not go further? 

If I got my bachelors, why not my masters? 

If I ran 10 miles, why not 20? 

Why not? 

What's stopping me? 

Dream big kiddo 

This year I felt my brain shift. I don't want the same things I did before.

Unfortunately, 2023 taught me that not everyone has your best interest at heart. 

People can only meet you as far as they've met themselves. 

Cliche cliche I know.

I used to think everyone was a good person but some people suck, that's just the way it is. 

It's best to stay away and not let it dim your light. 

I'm keeping this segment short for a reason. 

Fortunately, 2023 taught me that life is a gift and your life is an accumulation of the way you spend your days. 

I learned that I am abundant in love, it's right in front of me.

It's in the way my sister calls me daily.

It's in the way my cousin is comfortable enough to cry in front of me. I am proud of him. 

It's in the friendships I've had for 7+ years.

It's in the way they make sure I get home safe. 

It's in the way they follow me to the bathroom when the lights are dim. 

It's in the long distance, hour long phone calls. 

It's in the reassuring, unprompted texts. 

It's in 

It's in so many things I can go on forever.

Thankfully I can go on forever.

This year I learned that I love papaya and plantain chips.

In 2023, I looked in the mirror and fell madly in love with  the person I saw. 

I also felt a grand urge to protect her.

As the days pass I grow deeper into my skin. I start feeling more comfortable with myself.

I compare myself less. 

I love who I am becoming. 

Little me would think I'm cool if she knew me today.

Little me would befriend me.

That's all that matters really.

In 2023, I learned that I am a treasure.

My loyalty runs deep and the way I love is one of my favorite things about myself. 

I love how much I love my family and friends. 

I love how diversely I can show love. 

In 2023, I learned that keeping the peace is more important than burning a bridge. 

That life is short and people make mistakes all the time. 

That life is short, so tell them you love them, scream and shout it.

I learned I can't expect people to behave perfectly, and with this I learned that I can't ever be perfect, and that relieved me. I was holding people up to a standard I could never achieve myself. This helped me become kinder to myself. Nowadays I take it day by day.

I learned to give people chances, but not too many. 

I learned that confrontation is a positive thing, it just has a negative connotation to it, and there's nothing a conversation can't fix.

Of course, all parties must be working towards the same goal.

I'm 2023, I learned to sleep on it.

Sleep on it for five nights if needed.

Maybe just sleep some more dude.

I learned I need to see things for how they are.

Not for how I want them to be.

Hard pill to swallow.

Hard pill to swallow.

In 2023, I learned that no plan is the best plan. 

In 2023, I learned it's safe to be happy. To be okay.

To enjoy life.

I don't always have to be in fight or flight mode. 

In 2023, I learned that I can accept the gifts given to me by God/Universe.

I don't have to be so scared, there isn't going to be a bomb when I open the gift.

I learned that all is aligned for my greater good. I learned to trust. 

I no longer feel like I'm walking with a blindfold on. 

I had a wonderful time in 2023. I made the best of it. I'm happy with the way it's ending. I'm thankful for the new friendships made, the goals achieved, the hard parts too.

I know the holidays are a hard time for a lot of people, for a variety of reasons. 

So dear reader, if you're having a hard time this holiday season, or if 2023 was a difficult/meh one, I want to remind you that you are not alone.

I want to remind you that you are loved and I am proud of  you for making it this far.

Give yourself some grace. 

I hope 2024 is better for you. 

I hope you find joy in your everyday.

I wish you peace and light.

I wish you all the good this world has to offer. 

I am always available for anyone who wants to talk and release. Text or call me or visit me.

I apologize for all the positivity in this text, I know it can be gross. 

Dear reader and dear Leslie, happy new year, happy holidays :)

Woo hoo 2024 what's good, ur my bitch now 

-Suazo